Yes, I know the title is misleading... after all, I was only a "fashionista" of my own unique (and sometimes questionable) sense of style. But I love clothes. I love having an option of what to wear, and what will suit my personality that day. Now before you think I'm off my meds for my multiple personalities, it isn't that I'm a different person from day-to-day (although how interesting that must be), but rather, I like to try different things... and fit the persona that goes with them... for example... I like to sometimes go rockclimbing. Well... ok, I've been twice in the 3 years we've lived here in Dallas, but really, I WANT to, so ... I have two gorgeous pairs of prana pants I can choose between for those ventures. And if I want to be my sporty but stylish self on a bicycle, I have 2 pairs of skorts in fast-drying material (they were expensive, believe me!) And if I REALLY want to ride I have the gear for technical riding also... which I actually DID used to do frequently... over 7 years ago. And... for clubbing nights I have the sparkly-and-almost-there-but-in-a-tasteful-way dresses, as well as the not-so-tasteful-for nights-when-i-don't-want-to-see-anyone-i-know-but-want-to-shake-my-booty...and the "i'm a romantic girl on the beach with the chiffon skirt blowing in the wind" dresses, and the sexy sundresses, and work suits (which, the last time I had a job where I had to wear a suit to work was... oh...10 years ago). I mean, take jeans, for instance... I have rough jeans, jeans for country dancing, jeans that make my butt look great, jeans for sylish, snooty affairs (think lots of rhinestones), and so on...
And it has all come to a SCREECHING halt! And not for the reasons you might think. I'd like to say I'm lucky, but really it's a combination of genes, healthy eating, and exercise (and lots of breastfeeding a giant baby) that I'm not only back to pre-pregnancy weight, I'm actually below it. And while that means I can (mostly) fit in my pants, my boobs have exploded.... to a size F!!! SO.... almost none of my tops fit, and those that do have to work for breastfeeding. Since we are letting Kyra self-wean I'll be breastfeeding her approximately 3-4 years... AND... we are planning more kids, which means even LONGER.... SO.. I need shirts I can expose myself in. And most of my shirts in my closet won't work. (Those of you that know me, and really, who's reading this that doesn't, know that I absolutely REFUSE to cover myself with one of those stupid covers, or even worse, a blanket, to feed my child. I mean really... carry something else... in 97 degree summers... so I don't let someone glimpse my boob being used for what it's SUPPOSED to? Get a LIFE... I'd go topless if I could!!)
So I bit the bullet and spent tonight trying every single thing on. I created 3 piles- those (few) that fit and I can breastfeed in are in my closet. There's a small pile of shirts that fit that I think I can cut in strategic ways to MAKE them breastfeeding-friendly (And I'd LOVE help for those sewers out there, such as Amanda or Erin). And there's the GIANT pile of things I will never wear anytime soon... because I had had them for years and can't even fit them over my thighs (weep for my PRANA pants) but mainly because they won't fit my boobs period, and will NOT work for BFing unless I strip in public.
97. That's the number of new empty hangers in my closet. 97. That's the number of loved pieces of clothing that I've chosen over the years to adorn myself with that I'm saying goodbye to. 97. That's... well, you get the picture. Or you don't yet. Because that's also the number of pictures I have to take to post these 97 beloved items for sale... because, let's face it- I just get to look to replace them with newer, fresher, more "me" clothes that will let my boobs out when I want.
So, besides Target and Old Navy- anyone have suggestions for nursing tops?
